When I go out, yeah I know I’m gonna be….
Well I am gonna be – Knackered. For I have set myself a challenge. Last year I decided to run every day in January and much to my surprise I did it. I felt fantastic. It hurt at times but it was uplifting. For the last 20 odd years I have had the same old resolutions, never maintained or achieved. Stop biting nails and then the biggy – lose weight. Yet every NYE I am still squeezing into a Size 16 and feeling a little sorry for myself. Sometimes I hide the “lose weight” under the guise ‘be healthy’ or ‘eat clean’ but it is basically about the Skinny Holy Grail. How long do your NY Resolutions last? A day, a week? We join gyms, we buy a Nutribullet, new trainers, a new bike? Who are we kidding? Life is for living isn’t it? Not repeating the same mistakes and yet here I am a couple of decades later still deliberating the same old shit.
Last year I decided the whole diet thing was not working so set a challenge and I only went and bloody did it. So big tick for me and guess what? For that month and a little after I was healthy, happy and surprise surprise I lost a stone in a month. Whooohooooooooo. It was everything I dreamt of!! It worked…. I turned the negative of dieting into a positive of just challenging myself and it only went and bloody worked!
Then the challenge came to an end, I stopped blogging and it all went tits up (if only that is where the boobies stayed).
So I am still working out what size 16 outfit to wear this NYE and somehow this year that feels worse. I was doing it. Living the dream. Getting healthy, losing weight and feeling great. Then I stopped. The negativity took hold, various diets followed and I actually think I may be heavier now than NYE last year.
(Oh and by the way I may swear a little. Or a lot. So if that offends this may not be the blog for you! Shit, bums, wank, tits and the fabulous fuck. Sometimes in my head I repeat really bad swear words whilst on the outside my face paints on a smile. No counting to ten for me.)
So clearly I need another challenge. I need the focus, the drive and more importantly it would seem – I need you. I need you reading this. Supporting me. Driving me. Guiding me. Last January I was driven by the positivity so I am channelling that and being greedy and wanting more!
So I know I can do that, run for a month. What now? I want this challenge to take hold of my life and make running more of a habit. I know it makes me feel better.
THE CHALLENGE – 500 miles
An average of 2.7 miles a day.
The little negative shitbag that lives in my head (will tell you all about him sometime!) is already telling me I will fail so go face plant in the left over Christmas choccies but that little goody two shoes part of me wants to fight back so come on lets do this! I wonder where these 500 miles are going to take me.. Come with me.